Attention Anonymous

Okay, I'm gonna have to admit that I get a laugh out of the comments laced with swearing and insults that people seem to think have even the slightest chance of getting posted here. The thing that really makes me laugh though are those who comment to blast my choice to live as a spanked wife in a God-honoring DD marriage. These people have told me that I'm going to hell, that I am sick, that I am crazy. Some have offered me help to get out of my "abusive marriage" and some have just blasted the lifestyle plain and simple. Okay, nay sayers, just how did you find this blog then? I'm pretty sure it didn't just pop up on your screen by accident. Nope, you had to type something into your search engine to get you here. So, please enlighten me, if this is so repulsive and evil in your opinion, then why are YOU SEARCHING it out?????? If you dont' like it and you don't want to read about it, then why are you here? I'm guessing it's because on some level you are intrigued that this lifestyle exsists and that there are normal, happy, loving couples who flourish in this life. So, leave your comments if you must and I'll reject them as I must. I won't defend my decision to live this life because ultimately that decision is between my husband, myself and God. If you are honest enough to admit you are intrigued, then I'll be happy to try and answer questions, but if you are just bored and looking for a place to cause trouble and get a rise out of someone, just picture me laughing on the other end of the screen at your ignorance of something you dont' understand and then go get a hobby :).

To all the legitimate readers, thanks for your patience as I took care of a bit of housekeeping. This blog is for my thoughts that I want to share with the community and I will not allow it to turn into a place filled with rants and insulting comments. I love the comments and greatly appreciate anyone who comes to read here with an honest interest in this lifstyle :).

Have a great week :)

Asking for a spanking

Something that has come up here recently is asking for a spanking. That has always been allowed in our DD relationship. I can ask for a BG if I am feeling guilty about something, a stress-buster, a reminder, or even a GG. And I have before. The only rule we have in place on that is once I've asked, I cannot change my mind or back out.

Now, this sounds easy, right? Need a spanking, just ask. Nope, it's not. It's hard! For one thing, Helloooo! Spankings hurt! And it seems that when I know I need one the most, my stubborn pride kicks in. It would appear that I would rather earn one through misbehavior than admit my need for one.

Well, once again, we are out to umm... "cure" this. For the next two weeks, I have to ask for a spanking everyday sometime between the time he gets home from work and 9 pm. If I fail to do this, it will classify as disobedience and as you can see from yesterday's post, he is not giving me any wiggle room with that either. So, not only will failure to comply earn me a disobedience spanking, I will then be required to ask for two spankings the following day.

The idea here is to overcome my pride at asking for a spanking and trusting that he will know or ask what I need. So, I have to ask, not knowing and trust him to do it. So, I could receive a punishment type spanking, a GG, a reminder, or even just a light spanking to show he's paying attention.

Yesterday, I was bound and determined to start this well. I went up to him as soon as we had a free minute and told him I was ready. Apparently, that does not count as asking for a spanking. "Are you asking me for something?" he says. "You're not really going to make me say it out loud, are you?" I question. "Yes, I am. That's why it's called asking for a spanking." I tried to use the excuse that there were kids in the room, but he told me I could whisper it in his ear if I needed to ask him something. After being told more than once to ask for it, I chose to leave the room instead. So, when I finally did make myself ask, he informed me that I had also earned a disobedience spanking for not asking like he told me to.

After the spanking I asked for, he carried out my spanking for disobedience and then told me I had five minutes to put everything away and gather myself. Five minutes came and he came in to find me just starting to put things away. Remember, no wiggle room, so the strap came back out and I tearfully lowered my panties once again and received double what he had just given me. Needless to say, my next five minute warning was carefully heeded and I did as I was told.

This is not going to be easy!

Is it really obedience??

I've had a revelation this weekend. I consider myself pretty submissive with my husband, but after he pointed out some hesitancy to do as he asked WHEN he asked, I really had to ask myself. Am I as obedient as I claim to be? The honest answer is No. While I generally do what he asks of me, I have to admit that if it's something I don't' really want to do right then, that I won't. If I do manage to do it right then, I can't seem to do it without some attitude whether it be vocally or even in body language or I will do it when I am ready to do it versus when he tells me to do it. Or maybe, I'll do just enough of what he said to make it look like I complied. For example, being sent to the bedroom to bare my bottom, pick out a specific implement and wait for him. Okay, I'll probably go to the bedroom and even get the implement, but when he comes in, there's a 90% chance that my bottom will still be covered.

So, my husband is now on a quest to increase my obedience and submission standards. There will be swift and hard consequences for failure to obey completely for the time being until I can prove to him that I am genuinely trying versus still trying to have things my way under the guise of submission.

If anyone has any thoughts on this, I'd love to read them. Add a comment and I'll reply as soon as I can.

Have a great week :).